Thursday, December 12, 2002

Insect metaphors used to represent human beings .What does this suggest about their conception of human nature? What do you think of these metaphors?

The last men will be all alike, like herd animals, enjoying simple pleasures and mediocrity, afraid of anything too dangerous or extreme

Zarathustra suggests that humans are great only as a bridge between animal and overman. Humans are not the be all and end all of existence, as the "last men" would see themselves. We are still largely governed by our animal instincts, which lead us to prejudice, superficiality, and to easy reliance upon faith. In order to refine our being, we must turn our instinct for cruelty upon ourselves, and carve away at our prejudices, superficiality, and faith, creating something deeper. Zarathustra speaks of the triumphant moment where we look with contempt upon all the human qualities that we once valued. This would signify our triumph over our shallow, human nature, and our progress toward the overman.


There is no life;this life is all there is”

Meekness and Acquiescence are not virtures: Ruthless self-examination ,even self- contempt are the ways to perfection

Happiness is not the ultimate goal.Happiness is mediocre and pathetic

“Man is something that shall be overcome”

“Do you want to be the ebb of this great flood and even go back to the beasts rather then overcome man?

What is the ape to man? A laughingstock or a painful embarrassment.

You have made your way from worm to man, and much in you is still worm.

Once you were apes and even now ,too,man is more ape than any ape

Remain faithful to the earth.

Those who put faith in the otherworldly-Despisers of life are they, decaying and poisoned themselves ,of whom the earth is weary: so let them go.

“Once the sin against god was the greatest sin: but God died and these sinners died with him

To sin against the earth is now the most dreadful thing and to esteem the entrails of the unknowable higher than the meaning of the earth—understand that you are disgusting that you are a worm,that you are nothing but a product of the earth,in many ways youa re what you were in the beginning.

“Once the soul looked contemptuously upon the body ,and then this contempt was the highest: she wanted the body meager ,ghastly and starved.Thus she hoped to escape it and the earth.—to the point of death,so that worms could feast on her soul.

“Verily ,a polluted stream is man—man is worm.



What is the greatest experience you can have? The hour in which your happiness too arouses your disgust and even you reason and you virtue

Happiness,reason,virtuejustice,pity“It is poverty and filth and wretched contentment.”

“Man is rope tied between beast and overman—a rope over an abyss”

“What is great about man is that he is a bridge and not an end”

“They have something of which they are proud. What do they call that which makes them proud? Education they call it; it distinguishes them from goatheards.”

“I say unto you:one must still have chaos in oneself to be able to give birth to a dancing star. I say unto you : you still have chaos in yourselves.

“Alas the time of the most despicable man is coming,he that is no longer able to despise himself”—and see the inner WORM

The Metamorphosis
alienation and disoriented anxiety
that a man is now a large insect--and does not look back, with no nods or winks or unambiguous signs as to how we should proceed.
Although Gregor wakes up as an insect in outward, physical form, some of his more internal elements undergo a more gradual metamorphosis. But soon, his human voice disappears and his preferences grow more insect-like. With time he masters the coordination of his new body. He thinks less and crawls on walls and ceilings. But his consideration for his family's feelings seldom wavers

Only after Gregor's death does the liberation of their spirits occur, self-respect truly bloom, and the future become a bearable thought.




“AS Gregor Samsa awoke one morning from uneasy dreams he found himself transformed into a gigantic insect.”

“What has happened to me he thought?It was no dream.”

What about sleeping a little longer and frgetting about all this nonsense,he though, but it could not be done, for he was accustomed to sleep on his right side and in his present condition he could not turn himself over”

“He tried it at least a hundred times,shutting his eyes to keep from seeing his struggling legs,and only desisted when he began to feel lin his side a daint dull ache he had never experienced before.”

“What an exhausting job I’ve picked on?”

“This getting up early he thought makes one quite stupid.”

Does everything according to his boss and his parents.Lives veritably like an insect,like scum.

“ The porter was a creature of the chiefs—spineless and stupid.”

Did his best to make his voice sound as normal as possible by enunciating the words very clearly and leaving long pauses between them.”

“and he looked forward to seeing this morning’s delusions gradually fall away”

“ it was impossible to stay in bed and the most sensible course was to risk everything for the smallest hope of getting away from it”

He’s not well.What else would make him miss his train.The boy thinks nothing but of his work.”

It makes me cross the way he never goes out in the evenings ; he;s been here the last eight days and has stayed at home every single evening.”

“I thought you were a quiet ,dependable person ,and now all at once you seem bent on making a disgraceful exhibition of yourself”

“He paid no attention to the pains in the lower part of his body,however they smarted.”

That was no human voice!”

He felt himself ddrawn once more into the human circle and hoped for great a remarkable results from both the doctor and the locksmith.”

“Well,” said Gregor,knowing perfectly that he was the only one who had retained any composure ,”I’ll put my clothes on at once,pack up my samples and start off.Will you only let me go?”

Once can be temporarily incapacitated.

Gregor was settled for life in this firm,and besides they were so occupied with their immediate troubles that all foresight has forsaken them

“And without remembering that he was still unaware what powers of movement he possessed without even remembering that his words in all possibility ,indeed in all likelihood ,would again be unintelligible,he let go the wing of the door ,pushed himself through the opening.”

“This was really no joke”

“What a quiet life our family has been leading.”

But what if all the quiet,the comfort ,the contentment were now to end in horror?

“He scuttled under the sofa,where he felt comfortable at once ,although his back was a little cramped and he could not lift his head up,and his only regret was that his body was too broad to get the whole if it under the sofa.”

HE quickly devoured the cheese,the vegetables,and the sauce.”

Lateron, when she had got a little ised to the situation – of course she would never get completely used to it—she sometimes threw out a remark which was meant kindly.”

“ This made him realize how repulsive the sight of him was to her,and that it was bought to go on being repulsive/\

“Don let me in to Gregor, he is my unfortunate son! Can’t you understand that I must go to him?

“Doesn’t it look as if we were showing him ,by taking away his furniture,that we have given up hope of his ever getting better and are just leaving him coldly to himself?

“Did he really want his warm room,so comfortably fitted with old family furniture to be turned into a naked den in which he would certainly be able to crawl unhampered in all directions but at the price of shedding simultaneously all recollection of his human background?”

“Being sad and weary to death”

“I’m hungry enough,” said Gregor sadly to himself,” But not for that kind of food. How these lodgers are stuffing themselves.and here am I dying of starvation~”

Was he an animal that music had such an effect on him?

“ you must try to get rid of the idea that this is Gregor.The fact that we’ve believed it for so long is the root of all our trouble.Bit how can it Gregor? If this were Gregor, he would have realized long ago that human beings can’t live with such a creature ,and he’d have gone away on his own accord.”

“He tought of his family with tenderness and love.The decision that he must disappear was the one that he held to even more strongly than his sister.”



Gregor's predicament is much like that of any person suffering from severe, particularly disfiguring, chronic illness or disability. Gregor's life story and personal identity change dramatically when he becomes a vermin. In the new identity his senses are different: the hospital across the street is now beyond Gregor's range of vision. His abilities change. Shifts in spatial arrangements circumscribe Gregor's movements. His voice is transformed. Some of Gregor's changes are generated from within; some are conditioned by the world's reaction to his metamorphosis.
Other metamorphoses also occur in the story. Gregor's family see his predicament as an affront to them (after all, they expect Gregor to support the family). They withdraw from him, try to contain the damage, but in the process begin to change their own life stories as well--Gregor's father, who had been disabled, mobilizes and goes back to work; he changes from being an "old man" to a bank official "holding himself very erect." Gregor's sister also gets a job and seems on the verge of a new life.
"The Metamorphosis" can also be seen as a reaction against bourgeois society and its demands. Gregor's manifest physical separation may represent his alienation and inarticulate yearnings. He had been a "vermin," crushed and circumscribed by authority and routine. He had been imprisoned by social and economic demands: "Just don't stay in bed being useless . . . . "
In a psychoanalytic interpretation, The Metamorphosis prevents the imminent rebellion of the son against the father. Gregor had become strong as a result of his father's failure. He crippled his father's self-esteem and took over the father's position in the family. After the catastrophe, the same sequence takes place in reverse: son becomes weak, and father kills him.
Overall, the Metamorphosis primarily deals with the faults of human nature, and that is the inability to accept the unknown and the inability to go past physical appeIn the "Metamorphosis" Kafka uses metaphor to show the lack of communication in the relationships between the members of an ordinary low class family. To show that relationship he turns the main character, Gregor Samsa into an insect: "As Gregor Samsa awoke one morning from uneasy dreams he found himself transformed in his bed into a gigantic insect" (Kafka, Selected Short Stories, pg. 20). The metaphor is here right away, in the impossibility of communication between humans and an insect. Samsa's family doesn't want to be connected to him in any way any more. They don't even want to see him so he tries to keep out of their way and stays in his room all the time. But he can't accept the fact that his family is rejecting him just because he changed his shape but stayed mentally the same. Actually we are not sure through the whole story who Gregor Samsa is and how to perceive him: as a human being with his feelings and mind or just as an simple insect, an animal that we are disgusted by.
arances.

The same attitude is represented by Gregor trying to please everyone and thus becoming someone or rather something he is not. The metamorphosis itself can be regarded as a metaphor of the idea that compliance with everyone‘s wishes causes a loss of identity. ”O God, he thought, what an exhausting job I‘ve picked on! [...] If I didn‘t have to hold my hand because of my parents I‘d have given notice long ago.”6 This transformation is triggered by the society created during the Industrial Revolution since it demanded of workers the typical characteristics of an insect in a colony, such as conformity and collaboration to be a valid member, while attitudes essential to humanity and individualism were suppressed.
''Great indebtedness does not make men grateful, but vengeful; and if a little charity is not forgotten, it turns into a gnawing worm.''



Who can deny that the wretched feeling of an insect scuttling across one’s body is not disturbing or disconcerting? The very idea of something vermin creeping around on our “clean” bodies makes a person recoil in horror. An insect is a creature that inspires presumably inherent reactions of disgust. Yet, this is merely something one has been taught since they were young. All insects are dirty, wallowing in the filth of the earth, ready to spread disease and death. In all this teaching, the beautiful insects are forgotten, their qualities of industry, their earthly longevity. One would never equate the saffron velvet of butterfly wings, or the vibrant buzz of a honeybee with the shiny, cold, stealthy demeanor of a beetle, or the grubbing, slimy nature of an earthworm. Their importance in life is undermined because of their ghastly insect ugliness. It are these qualities, derived from the ugliness of the earth that seem to represent in Nietzsche’s “Thus Spake Zarathustra” and Kakfa’s “The Metamorphosis” , the “ poverty ,filth, and wretched contentment”( Nietzsche) of humanity. Zarathustra suggests that humans are magnificent only as a bridge between animal and overman. Humans are not the only aspect of existence, as the "last men" would see themselves. One is still largely governed by one’s animal instincts, which lead one to prejudice, superficiality, and to easy reliance upon faith. In “Metamorphosis”, The Metamorphosis" can also be seen as a reaction against bourgeois society and its ugly demands, especially in the Industrial Age .Gregor's manifest physical separation may represent his alienation and inarticulate yearnings. He had been a "vermin," crushed and circumscribed by authority and routine. He had been imprisoned by social and economic demands: “I thought you were a quiet, dependable person, and now all at once you seem bent on making a disgraceful exhibition of yourself”(Kafka).Both Nietzsche and Kafka have elements of hope to their pieces, hope that one day ,these ugly insects might be recognized for the creatures that they really are.

Nietzsche stipulates that,” “Man is something that shall be overcome” Man must recognize the worm in him, and relish in his self-contempt for only then will he truly see himself. Man must express these disgusting things which are inherent in him because,”
You have made your way from worm to man, and much in you is still worm.” The idea that man has transcended beastliness is what has made him content, acquiescent, ignorant, and complacent. Inside every man is a worm, wriggling, connecting this man’s being to the earth from whence he came, making him inherently “faithful to the earth”. According to Nietzsche, man cannot not escape this quality in himself and it is wholly edifying for him to not do so. He describes a life, which reaches its consummation in attaining to a second understanding or in returning to beastliness. Nietzsche disclaims all relationship whatever to rebellion, for he shows us that only by bearing the burdens of the existing law and submitting to it patiently does the free spirit acquire that ascendancy over tradition which enables him to meet and master his life. The existing law states that man is worm, because man came from worm, from life forms lesser then he.” Once you were apes and even now, too, man is more ape than any ape.”




Sunday, December 01, 2002

Don't mind me.I'm just going to put up a list of bands I need to check out for my new radio show idea.So,I don't forget them.No one reads my website anyway.

The Ewoks.Python Jack.The Minions.Johnny Contagious,Easy Action.Baseball Furies.Lost Sounds.Metros.Low Budgets. The Spits. American Analog Set.Apoptygma. Berzerk. Barrit.Bleeding Through.Botch.By a Thread.Converge. Damien Jurado. Division of Laura Lee. Down. Earth Crisis. Eighteen Visions.In Flames. Isis.Matt Pond PA.Neurosis.My Morning Jacket. Raul Malo. Scars of Tommorrow. Sky Come Falling.Taken. The Coutn and The Spark. The Dillnger Escape Plan. VNV Nation. Wolfsheim. Radio 4. Slint. Ex-Models. Erase Eratta. Big Black. Mission of Burma. Stolkholm Monsters. Killing Joke. Severed Heads.Swans. Lightening Bolt. Les Savy Fav.The Rain coats.Firewater. Dismemberment Plan.Mum.Plaid. Desaparecidos.Xiu Xiu. From autumn to ashes.Red Rsoes For a Blue Lady. Thursday. I Hate Myself. Panic. The Deidcation. Godspeed you Black Emperor!.!!!.I carus Line. Aesop Rock. Themselves. Black Dice. The Prima Donnnas. The Vogue. Sekiden.The Red Light Stong.Holy Molar. Rah BRass. The Sick Lipstick. The Moving Units. GoGoGoAirheart. HotSnakes.xbxrx.Train Vs. Auto.Rocking Horse Winner.GlassJaw.Autopilot Off. Audio Learning Center.Derringer. The Stranglers. The Come Ons. Chilly Gonzales. Add N To X.The Fucking Champs.The Detroit Cobras.The Velvet Teen. Secret Stars.Forstella Ford.Kind Of Like Spitting.Estella.TRansistor Transistor.Zero Zero. Joan of Arc. The Detachment Kit. Texas is The Reason. Le Shok. Yellowcard. Student Rick. Cadillac Blindside.The Ghost. Hot WAter Music. Open Hand. Something Corporate. The Rocking Horse Winner.The Exit.Shiner.Rye Coalition. Finch.Taking Back Sunday. Koaspilot.Snoop and Luda. The Make-Up. Wolf eyes. Mommy and Daddy. Wire. Suicide. Flying Lizard.Tracy and the Plastics. Adult. The Gossip. Mt. Sims. Bedroom Walls. High On Fire.

Sunday, October 27, 2002

Dear You,

We have tasted each other's sweat,playing ,licking fluids off the curves of our backs,but it is your eyes that I devour.They speak of a mischief that only we understand.Each of us is a bandit with a stolen heart.Only your spirit feels right when you body is pressed up to mine.Others were just victims of vaginal heat,never to know the nature of an even more torrid beast,which is my heart.But,you,you whom everyone loves,you who is magical,beautiful,wild,and mine,you are the creature that knows my soul.The sound of your voice is better then any orgasm,the touch of your fingers on my hand is vertible ectasy.I live to hear you breath.I would be happy to be near you,even if the only physical contact we had was me leaning close to your chest and feeling the rise and fal of your lungs,the beat of your heart.

We never say it.We tangle our words up in remarks that are loaded with emotion but joking for distraction.Distraction from what is the truth.I love you.Months and months I have waited to tell you this.And I will probably have to wait another bit of months and months as I would never want to lose you with my honesty.

But,I love you."I do.I only make jokes to distract myself from the truth."

I love you .

Me.
Dear You,

We have tasted each other's sweat,playing ,licking fluids off the curves of our backs,but it is your eyes that I devour.They speak of a mischief that only we understand.Each of us is a bandit with a stolen heart.Only your spirit feels right when you body is pressed up to mine.Others were just victims of vaginal heat,never to know the nature of an even more torrid beast,which is my heart.But,you,you whom everyone loves,you who is magical,beautiful,wild,and mine,you are the creature that knows my soul.The sound of your voice is better then any orgasm,the touch of your fingers on my hand is vertible ectasy.I live to hear you breath.I would be happy to be near you,even if the only physical contact we had was me leaning close to your chest and feeling the rise and fal of your lungs,the beat of your heart.

We never say it.We tangle our words up in remarks that are loaded with emotion but joking for distraction.Distraction from what is the truth.I love you.Months and months I have waited to tell you this.And I will probably have to wait another bit of months and months as I would never want to lose you with my honesty.

But,I love you."I do.I only make jokes to distract myself from the truth."

I love you .

Me.

Sunday, September 15, 2002

Fucking boys.The minute I begin to hate them, consider a life long lesbian lifestyle, contemplate massive amounts of therapy for a low sex drive,I have to get a silly third grade crush on one of them. Ack.Someone shoot me.How old am I?

Right.Twenty.Yeah yeah yeah.I know.This is normal.Blah Blah blah.

But, he's so cute!

~shakes her wannabe feminist head in shame~

Sunday, August 18, 2002

I have nothing good to give you but a list of awesome bands I'm sure you have not heard of.Or maybe you had,I'm just a bit vain.

Noe Venable.Mull Historical Society.Tom McRae.Ben Christophers.Gemma Hayes.Divine Comedy.Bitch and Animal.Ali Handel.

Check 'em out.Why? Because Ishie said so.

Wednesday, July 24, 2002

TOP TEN SIGNS ISHTAR NEEDS TO GET LAID

10: Ish locks herself up in the bathroom for long
periods of time,while listening to classical
music.Every once in awhile you hear a tortured little
shriek and the sound of a shampoo bottle hitting the
wall.

9:Ish walks around with a delirious smile on her
face and everytime you try to talk to her,she answers
with a scattered, vague ,nonsensical answer like
"huh?" and "I don't know,i mean,i don't know,but i
do,but i just don't know,you know?".If she does talk
it's to talk about how horny she is,and what you can
do about it.

8:She goes from confident raging sex pot to whimpering
hysterical baby in point five seconds.

7:The longer she goes without sex,the skimpier and
skimpier her clothing gets until she reaches the point
where she refuses to leave the house,and will just
stay home naked with a wide eyed ,sad,puppy dog look
on her face.

6:She begins to contemplate becoming a lesbian because
in her mind lesbians MUST get laid more!

5:She starts to get even more touchy -feely than
normal and will lick,smell,and rub up against anything
relatively comforting or penis like.

4:Lesbians do get laid more ,don't they?

3:She begins to rationalize why she isn't having
sex.First,She blames her own inadequecies on her lack
of play.Such as,"I must be getting fat",or "Maybe He
doesn't think I'm good in bed anymore." Second,She'll
blame the other person."He's just boring and doesn't
understand what he's missing" or "Stupid fuck with the
small prick deserves his cock through (any standard
horrific torture device i.e. meat grinder.) Third,she
realizes that it's really no one's fault and tries to
make it into a positive experience."Well,lack of sex
does make you more intelligent and this is a great
time for me to be focusing on what I need to do with
my life."

2:Even though She has been a vegetarian for six
years,meat starts to look good and she can't walk by
Burger King without salivating.

and the number one sign Ishie hasn't been laid( in a
day or two really.more long term vacations like,god
forbid,a MONTH have much more drastic simply sadistic
signs.poor girl)issssssssss......

1:She talks nonstop about the Blessed Virgin Mary.(okay,everyone who's been a victim of catholic school ,raise your hand)

Sunday, July 07, 2002

and wake the woman who is heaven's bane...

dormi dulcis,dormi bella
Caeli Gaudinum puella
dormi,dormi blanchula.
WHEN CREATIVE WRITING CLASS BECOMES INDECENT...

India falls red like the blood,
Of Kama Sutra scratches from the creamy
Thighs of goddesses.
Mother’s coveting the east
startling the fat child of the west.
Who grazes on the amber,
Petrified,
Victim’s of headlights,
Nipples of Ishtar, who rides her lion of fortune,
A lion’s sex is harder to guess than the quality of sex,
One will get with a passerby ,
On his way to work,
Slightly impotent from too much martini foreplay,
The night before.Sadly sober,
Victim extraordinaire of sensuality so cruel,
Whores weep at the beauty and ingenuity.
Passion exuding like ice ,burns so confused
Couches have lost their springs to summers.
He once wrote me a letter that dated,1975,
That his characters were real but had nothing to say.
Their roar was not comprehensible enough and nothing overwhelms more,
Then the intensity of
Not knowing,
What the fuck
You are saying.
Right?
Roar.